"text me when you get home so i know you’re safe" kinda people are the people i wanna be around
i always had my head wrapped around the idea of getting into a wonderful university and getting a good job and getting married and having a family and being able to support them but for some reason now all i want to do is travel and eat new foods and meet new people and get a tan and buy a one way ticket and not come home
this is the most relevant thing I have ever read
Traveling and running away was all I ever wanted and here I am, in the same town, living with my boyfriend. We’re practically married and with kids (dogs. same thing.)
I was never the type to be like oh I’m gonna be this big and I’m gonna have these things and blah blah blah
I’m the type to flaunt what I have
Cause then I’d feel like a dumb ass saying oh I’m gonna have a 10 bedroom mansion when I’m 21 and end up still living with my parents
I’m the type to say what I like or say things are nice but not really say I’ll have that someday. Except for my Beamer but that’s like literally the only thing because I set that as a goal but my boyfriend got it for me because he’s the type that if I mention one little thing I want he’ll go out and get it for me. Like I needed a dress and heels for my dads 60th bday party and he gave me a budget. What was that budget? $300. That’s fucking insane and I honestly didn’t spend even half of that. I thought I did but I didn’t lol. And my heels were $100 Steve maddens.
That’s why I don’t really tell him I want some things cause then he’ll go get it and that just makes me feel materialistic af and sometimes I am. Most of the time I am, I just rather get it on my own and not have my bf get it for me.
And I don’t like that my bf is the type of guy to talk before he has. Before we got the Beamer he kept on telling everyone we were gonna get it. I never told anyone cause I knew there was a chance we couldn’t get one out on our own because we’re young and black and our hats real low. lol I hope whoever reads that gets it. But srsly were young and we make good money together but a dealer told us no on the spot cause he doesn’t have enough credit history and I was like I tooooold you. And insurance is expensive cause we’ve only been deivingn for what 2 years cause were Mexican so our parents didn’t let us start driving at 16 lol.
I know a lot of things he doesn’t just cause I saw my older siblings go through it. He’s the oldest so everything is new to him.
I have no idea where I’m going with this lol.
I lost my train of thought.
But anyways a lot of people, actually, everyone always asks me what would happen to the car if we broke up. I’ll end up keeping it cause if he takes it I take my name off of it and his interest will spike up and he doesn’t want that lol. I can afford it on my own. We both made sure of that before getting it. But things are good right now so everyone needs to shut the fuck up and stop raining on my parade 😤
LuV mI hAtErZ ~
only one person has had the AUDACITY to ask me if my parents got me the car
everyone else pretty much knows he bought it for me
let me go make breakfast for my man since he’s working graveshift tonight
I have group therapy for anxiety and depression tomorrow and just thinking about being around people talking about their feelings gives me anxiety. Like why do I have to do this. I better not have to pay for this shit.
I think I’m just not gonna show up. Make up some excuse to why I didn’t make it. My phone died. I got lost. My car stopped in the freeway. I died.
Nah, swag will be when we wear them together and take those swaggie pictures and post them on Instagram and hash tag everything possibly kind of relevant.
It’s so real I just might make it fb official now.
~6 months later~